Dienstag, 28. Februar 2012

Pig's eye

.. New experince today. I just cut off a pig's eye. Well we did it actually in group. Andi made the hole of 5x5 mm by cutting the sclera, and I pealed off ( wahaha peal!!) the sclera, so we could see what is inside the eye, how the eye apple actually looks like AND I took off the lens from the eye!!! wiiiiiii... It was just an amazing experiment.

How God is good, he made everything unhumanpredictable. complicated but details. even every smallest part of eye has a great function which more or less useless if it stands alone. how great He is :)

Dienstag, 21. Februar 2012

Falling in You

It was you. Yeah it was you
who makes me fallin and fallin again

If you know
how hard I tried to make these butterflies in my stomach die
then you should know
how easy you have made them live again

If you know
how hard I tried to doctrine myself not hoping on your love
then you should know
how easy you broke the hope down just everytime I see you

It was you. yeah it was you
who makes me fallin and fallin
I like it. for no reason.

But will you catch me while I'm fallin?
Will you help me standing after all?

It was you. yeah it was you
who makes me fallin and fallin
but I like it. for no reason.

Montag, 20. Februar 2012

Lost

Sedihnya sampai malas rasanya nulis di blog. yah kemarin memang lagi ujian sih. Untuk pertama kalinya ujian gw ada yang ga lulus. Yaaah.. tau deh gimana nasib studi gw.

Belakangan gw kebanyakan pikiran kayaknya. dan gw hilang. I'm lost.

Dalam waktu singkat, gw kehilangan dua orang yang gw kenal. Frau Yustin dan Yofanka. Dua-duanya meninggal, dengan cara yang menurut gw ga wajar. Damn, mereka dua-duanya masih muda gitu. Rasanya masih panjaaannng banget masa depan. Si Frau kayaknya baru 40an, Fanka malah 2 tahun lebih muda dari gw. Dua-duanya adalah orang yang simple, suka senyum, cantik, smart, ga ambil pusing hidup, positiv eingestellt, kata orang sini. Tapi Tuhan rasanya cepet banget manggil mereka. Frau, tiba-tiba jatuh dari ojek, dan seketika aja langsung koma dan meninggal setelah 5 hari. Fanka, tiba-tiba hilang waktu perahunya terbalik di sungai Cikandang dan baru ditemukan 4 hari kemudian. Semuanya serba mendadak, bikin sedih, resah dan membuat gw hilang arah.

Fanka, I'm so glad to know you and being your friend. Terharu banget baca notes temen lw yang punya indra keenam itu. Gw belajar banyak dari lw, Fan. Especially for enjoying life, being yourself, independent, adventurous. I'll remember you everytime I feel unsatisfied with life and I believe somewhen I can do it like you. Seneng kalo bisa tau lw udah bahagia di sana. Emang ky malaikat yah kamu.. Rest in peace, my dearest friend :')

Jujur, waktu Fanka ditemukan dalam keadaan meninggal, gw udah ga bisa lagi nangis. Gw rasanya ga percaya lagi sama Tuhan. Gw marah. Gw takut. Gw sedih. Gw merasa Tuhan tidak adil. Dan rasanya ditampar-tampar sama Tuhan : "ni lho Dit, sadar ya, Saya bisa manggil kamu kapan aja dengan cara Saya"

Yes, in His way, that nobody would understand. I'm lost, but I pray that God will lead me back to His path. again in His way :'(